Faith has gotten me through some of the worst times in my life.  That is for sure.  I have often considered myself a woman whose faith was a key part of her life.  I just  wish I could say that my faith was strong all of the time…that it never wavered…that I lived with a faith that filled every part of my being and I never gave in to worry.  I wish.

I am in a season that I have never experienced…unemployment.  There are times I get angry at the loss of my job and there are moments when I wonder if the job I did mattered.  Did I make a difference?  Was I any good?  Did I do anything wrong?  I know that it was a reduction in work force, but still, I wonder.

What is next?  Every time I sit at my computer I search for jobs…and the doubt creeps in.  “Will I find another job?  Will I find something to make just enough to help support for my family?  Is it possible to find a place where I will thrive and flourish? ”  Most importantly, “Will I be happy?”

I do know that if I let doubt creep into my heart that I will travel down to the slimy, cold, dark pit of depression.  It’s a no brainer.  I am the queen of letting doubt grab a hold of my heart and my mind will take my soul apart piece by piece.  I’m sure I’m not the only one who can let that happen.

If I could just let my faith take the lead when my doubt surfaces and speaks falsely to my heart…then maybe I could hear that voice that has called out to me so many times in my life.  The voice of the One who created me saying that I am his masterpiece.

Yes, Beloved, you are His masterpiece.

“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”  Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)

Today I Am Thankful For:

1. Ibuprofen
2. banana pudding
3. sleeping for 7 hours straight!
4. opportunities
5. faith