My life truly began 17 years ago…when my firstborn came into the world. I remember everything about that day as if it had happened moments ago.
Seeing my son raised up by the doctor, my new son breathing in air for the first time… his cries were music to my ears.
My heart was so filled that I felt as if I was suffocating.
The doctor laid this amazing little creature on my chest and I remember not being able to utter a word.
My heart was exploding with a love I had never experienced.
Julian “Lance” was here.
My husband and I stayed up the entire night, in the dark (due to a blown transformer in a violent, summer storm) talking and laughing. I don’t remember the words we spoke but what I do remember is the utter amazement and wonder we were experiencing…without a clue as to what was ahead of us.
The joy of a newborn, the stress of a toddler (with hemophilia), starting pre-school, and the trials and tribulations of raising a teenager…not an easy journey, but it has been am amazing experience (and it’s not over yet) 🙂
I would love to plot out how my Julian’s life is going to work out. But only God knows what is in store for him. I want nothing more than to steer my son in what I think is the “right” direction, and I will continue to do my best to influence his decisions, but I know that my vision of what his life “should” look like is just that…my vision and not his.
Happy Birthday, Julian Lance MacDonald, I adore you more than any words can ever express.
No one will ever love you the way I do, son. I am so amazed that God brought you into my life and has blessed me with the joy of raising you and loving you.
Today I Am Thankful For:
1. birthday candles
2. lazy days
3. flash drives
4. dry heat
5. Central AC (NO SWAMP COOLER)!
