Today in worship, we celebrated communion (I like that our second service celebrates communion weekly).  After receiving the elements, I went to the altar to pray…and I had no words.  I wanted to talk to God after that special moment of communion, but my heart and mind were so jumbled that I could not get a cohesive thought to form.  I wanted to approach the altar and have a moment where I would cry out to God and connect, but I found myself kneeling, staring at the carpet.

Instead of feeling bad because my time at the altar wasn’t what I wanted it to be, I realized that simply offering myself, humbling myself before God with the greatest of intention was enough for that moment.  He knows my heart and hears every, single thing that I say, not only to others, but to myself, and I am sure it grieves his heart when he hears some of those things.

Sometimes I can’t express my deepest thoughts and desires to God.  Those things that are hard to utter aloud and even to myself are hidden in the depths of my soul.  I know he hears me.  Not only when I am in prayer, but in all of the happenings of my life.

This week I am going to work on being still and listening.  If I can stop long enough to listen, maybe I can work on voicing those things that are buried deep in my soul.  And maybe, just maybe,  those things that live in the dark, yucky places in my soul will start to surface and they won’t be as scary.

Today I Am Thankful For:

1. Lens cleaner
2. Pretty notebooks
3. Spray adhesive
4. Rice
5. Index cards