I am a very transparent person. Probably more than I should be. I used to be a woman who tried to be what she was not by dressing a certain way and trying to keep up with the Jones’. It just wasn’t me. It took moving out of state on a huge leap of faith as my husband changed careers and we went to a small town in Southern New Mexico.
That is when I truly lived the life I was meant to live.
As a pastor’s wife you would think that keeping a sense of privacy is important. It is, but the last thing I want is for someone to not feel comfortable around me because they should act a certain way. My language can be “colorful” at times and I have the occasional adult beverage. I argue with my children and am not always the model parent. I am a regular woman doing the best I can with what God has given me.
An old friend told me he didn’t like how he felt about a coworker. He felt guilty for simply not liking him. I immediately told he was not alone! We all have those feelings towards others…we are human. My big admission was how I sometimes feel when I “have to” lead a Bible study or do work for the church. I tell my husband that going and “doing the Lord’s work” is the last thing I want to do! But every time I feel that way and I go do what needs to be done, I find that my ministry is stronger than ever. I come back feeling like I truly did the Lord’s work because He led me where I needed to be and gave me the words that I needed.
God uses us. Not just when we feel like it, but even when we are at our worst.
Think about that the next time you are in a lousy mood. He has given you another day with breath in your lungs.
He’s not done with you yet.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- Lunch with friends and tons of laughter!
- Our new puppy
- An afternoon at the park
- Craft shows
- socks
