I am so blessed to be with a wonderful group of ladies on Tuesday evenings. We are reading Renee Swope’s “A Confident Heart.” It is just a gem. Every paragraph has an amazing nugget of wisdom that hits home for me. I want to share a section that really hit me this past week.
“If you’ve ever doubted God’s personal pursuit of you, let this truth sink in, my friend; wherever you are, He wants to meet you there. He is waiting for you to stop, come up close , and turn your heart to listen to His. You don’t have to pretend things are fine when they aren’t. He knows what is going on in your thoughts. Nothing could keep Him from wanting to be with you.”
-From “A Confident Heart”, Renee Swope, pg. 37.
I hate how doubt tends to consume me. Sometimes it’s my work and wondering if I am truly performing up to my potential, or am I doing enough for my children in the way of being a mom. And more often than not, I doubt whether or not I am good enough for myself. Saying these things “out loud” is hard, but the truth is, God knows every thought I have. Even the thoughts that I could never speak out loud…the ones about myself and how I feel less than.
God is in “pursuit” of me. Every day. He meets me despite how I look or feel. It’s like a child that has been playing outside all day long. Full of mud and critters…running to Mom and Dad with complete faith and love. That child did not stop to wash off the mud and critters before he went running to his parents…he went just as he was.
That’s how God wants me and you. Just the way we are. Sometimes that’s hard for me to accept. That God loves me with all of my “junk”. Stinkin’ thinkin’ and all.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- Kindergarten homework
- A new brace for my “Christian’s” ankle
- Reaching out to a new mentor in my process of discernment through the church
- A new sweatshirt
- Looking forward to the weekend
