I brought my little “Christian” into the hospital around 11:30 pm on Wednesday to Albuquerque (2 hours from home). He was in tons of pain with an ankle bleed that was not getting better despite our constant infusions. About 45 minutes into the drive I regretted not taking the ambulance. He was screaming in pain. Fortunately he finally fell asleep. Hearing his pain is the absolute worst.
We are still here and he is getting better slowly but surely.
I had really hoped we would be home today, but the best thing for him is to be here and heal.
My husband ran rehearsals, Thursday and Friday evenings and has a concert tonight and preaches Sunday morning….I’m on my own. But he just called and is sneaking away for a few hours before his concert to come see us! (After hours of Disney Junior and deep, stimulating conversation with a five year old, I am pretty excited that he is coming for a bit đŸ™‚
Sitting and waiting can be a nice thing. You can read, surf the internet, nap, etc. but it can also be a dangerous thing.
My mind can be a dangerous neighborhood when I am there alone, you know what I mean?
Doubt creeps in about everything; I wonder if I am a good enough mother and wife, I start to beat myself up about my weight, do I portray the appropriate image and do all I need to do as the wife of a pastor, and I wonder if I had done things differently on any given day, would my little one have been able to avoid a bleed.
Talk about going crazy! The devil knows the best ways to creep into a believer’s heart. He finds the areas of our lives where we are not completely happy. The areas of our lives that we strugle in and he has a field day.
Personally, I am not strong all the time. I am not an “oozer” 24/7, but I strive to be. It’s those moments when I don’t put Christ first in my heart, soul and mind that the devil takes root. At least I know when it’s happening. So many people don’t see it.
Maybe you can help someone open their eyes to the untruths that are in their heart.
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Mark 11:24 (NIV)
Today I Am Thankful For:
1. The Child Life Playroom
2. crunchy, hospital bacon
3. Disney Junior
“4. Fresh fruit
5. Red wagons
