When I am living life, doing the next right thing, sometimes I feel like I am simply going through the motions. I actually like this kind of living because it means hemophilia is not the focus in my home for a while. But after a period of living with a lot of “normal,” I find my mind going into overdrive with doubt.
- Doubt about my work.
- Doubt about my writing.
- Doubt about making healthy decisions.
- Doubt about the dreams that I have.
“Normal” can suck the life out of me! Tonight as I was living in my state of normal I had a moment with a friend. One of those moments when everything in the universe comes together and for an instant you feel the presence of God.
My friend and I were talking and enjoying our time together at a workshop. I had been contemplating bringing up a certain issue all evening and I talked myself out of it. Lo and behold what happens? She brings the exact same issue up.
My arms filled with goosebumps as she was talking and I look at her in astonishment and said, “You won’t believe me, but I was going to bring the same thing up.” This is one of those moments when God shows up, fills the room, and has a great, big belly laugh. I like to think He was showing off a little bit.
In that moment when I was basking in the glory of God’s goodness I had not a gentle reminder, but a great, big, slap-me-in-the-face reminder, “Cazandra, I am here with you and have never left you! I love you right now, in this moment, just as you are. Rely on me.”
We all need those moments and tonight I am so grateful, so blessed, and so determined to do the things I need to do to live a life that is pleasing to God in every way I can.
May you have a moment when God’s love is so evident that it slaps you in the face and makes you smile.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- Scrapbook club
- The smell of rain
- Fresh flowers
- Sunflower seeds
- “K”
