Forgiveness.
Just the word makes people shudder. Some people say, “You can forgive but never forget!” And quite a few of us seem to practice the art of forgiveness with only a select few. As my husband would say, “That’s not the ‘Christian’ thing to do.” (and he is pointing the finger back at himself).
I will admit that I have issues with forgiveness…a couple of family members in particular, but I have found there is one person in particular that is the hardest to forgive…myself.
This week (I know, it’s only Tuesday) I realized I had a misunderstanding with someone and they were a little disappointed with me. Then I found out I had missed sending a package out (it is on it’s way a little late) and I felt terrible. You know, these are two situations that turned out fine, but I am still finding myself feeling a little sick to my stomach.
Our family experienced a glorious and stressful evening all wrapped into one this past week as my husband was ordained and my little boy had an awful bleed (and I did not pack enough factor and pain medicine for our short trip out of town). So yes, I am still reeling over the fact that I failed.
We all fail. Most of the time it’s not on purpose, but we are human. And if we are living and breathing another day, in the grand scheme of it all, did that failure really matter?
God knew how the children he created would act and he still sent Jesus to our world to endure a death more horrific than we can begin to imagine.
That, Beloved, is love like none other.
I am going to work harder at forgiving myself…for the mistakes I have made (and will make), the wrong words spoken, being judgmental and especially forgiving myself for the awful way I talk to myself.
I am human and I mess up, but what I do know for sure is that I am loved right where I am by the One who does no wrong.
That is pretty amazing.
Today I Am Thankful For:
1. Intuition
2. Newly, sharpened pencils
3. Perfume
4. Loose change
5. Trash bags
