What a weekend! I traveled to Omaha to spend time with one of my dearest friends, “J”, and we went to see Janet Jackson in concert. I love, love, love Janet’s music and we had a fantastic time:)
I went out of the box for myself and instead of saying, “Wouldn’t it be nice to visit each other and have some fun?” I actually did it, with the help of my husband 🙂 “J” gets me so well and when we are together we laugh more than anything! It was good for my soul.
On the flight back home I was mentally preparing to get home and go trick or treating with Caeleb. I sat in my seat and next to me was a 30 something little wisp of a woman, deeply tanned, beautiful blonde hair, with a short flowery dress on and cowboy boots. And now instead of preparing my mind and heart to be with my family I’m feeling like Godzilla.
I had to work very hard to stop my negative thinking. I was squirming in my seat imagining the things she must have been thinking! Never mind that I have never laid eyes on this woman or even exchanged a simple greeting with her.
I finally settled down and had a talk with myself. I have given birth to two amazing children! I have the scars and stretch marks to prove it…and I wouldn’t change a thing. I am a woman who suffers from PCOS which makes losing weight extremely difficult. If the extra weight I carry is my symbol for the time I enjoyed being pregnant then I’ll take it. I am the one, in this beautiful body, that my little boy runs to for a hug after a long trip. I am the one in this beautiful body that still hears her 19 year old son say, “I love you Mama.”
Would I rather be thin and “perfect” on the outside and not have those two beautiful sons in my life? Absolutely not! I adore them with every fiber of my being and I am the woman I am today because of them.
I look around at the airport and am in awe at the beauty surrounding me. People of all ages, shapes and sizes. God is just amazing by creating us each with our own gifts and looks.
I hope that whenever I see someone my instinct to judge does not take over. Every person should know that they are beautiful, loved and definitely enough.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- Janet Jackson!
- Finally meeting “J’s” family
- Pumpkins
- Getting out of the box
- Being home
