When I started my One Word journey this year with the word “change,” I was anticipating something much different than what I am currently experiencing. I thought the change would be more of a physical change for me regarding my health. Four months are almost gone in 2017 and my physical being is about the same…it’s my professional journey that is changing direction.
I am stepping out in faith with a new (very part time) position that will send me across the country to speak on behalf of a pharmaceutical company…it’s everything I could have hoped for, but as for financial security, I am a bit nervous. I’ve worked full time since I was 21 years old and this leap of faith is indeed a leap.
Never in a million years would I have imagined that in 2017 I would be on a new professional journey. But something else has come up that may be what I am looking for. It may be that the right time is now for something completely different…more to come soon.
Another change that has been a struggle is…well, it’s my heart. There is so much going on right now in my life, my husband’s life and the lives of both of my sons that I almost feel numb. I pray but it feels rote. I walk the labyrinth, and I can’t get out fast enough, and I go to church and I have so much on my mind that I am not able to set everything aside to focus on what is important.
I don’t think my relationship with Christ is in a bad place, I just believe that with so many possibilities and ideas running through my head that I am not allowing myself to surrender to Christ as I should. I know what I need to do…but I can’t seem to do it. It’s like losing weight…I know what I should and shouldn’t eat and that I should exercise more often, but the ice cream just screams to me from the freezer and it wins every, single time.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- ham
- egg hunts
- Moscow Mules
- A Park Above
- fans
