My “center” has been off. Throughout the last several weeks I have needed my “center” more than ever and have not had any focus on Whose I am.
My little boy had been hospitalized for a month and our family was under some pretty high levels of stress. It was a time when I needed to completely surrender everything to my “center,” God, and quite honestly, I did not always focus on Him and reach out for strength in my faith.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.” -Isaiah 43:2
So many times I felt like the waters were rushing around me and I was about to lose my footing. I was moments away from being swept down the river. But I never was. Often I was not at my best…thinking about the worst and occasionally losing hope, but the truth is I was never swallowed up by the waters.
When I felt as if I was completely alone, God was with me.
- He was with me when I was watching every blip on the monitors in the middle of the night.
- He was with me when my son was screaming in pain and the meds were not working.
- He was with me when I cried during my trips back and forth between home and the hospital.
I’ve been down the path of hospitals before but for some reason this last experience was more intense than others. Perhaps the length of stay had a lot to do with it.
What I need to accept is that this experience is behind us. I’m struggling with this. My son and our family came through it and we are all healing.
It will happen again, but I will be sure to keep my center and surrender it all to Him.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- Grocery shopping
- Fresh eggs
- A dirty kitchen floor
- My favorite hymns being sung in church
- Having already started my Christmas shopping (the earliest ever)!
