One of the items on my list of things to do in my lifetime is to run a 5K. Now I’ve never been a runner, but it is something I have always wanted to do. After losing this weight, I have actually found going to the gym to be something I look forward to (I know, I can’t believe this is true)! I always feel better after I am on the treadmill, listening to my music and taking time for myself. But there is one issue…my pain.
I had to stop using weights and focus on cardio because of my chronic pain, which is taking the breath out of me right now. Would you know it by looking at me? Absolutely not. When I am running on the treadmill or at the track would you see that I am a woman in pain with every step? Never.
Pushing through and continuing to move is what has kept my sanity in check, but there are moments like this evening when I cannot even imagine putting my running shoes on again. Like I tell so many women who struggle with depression, anxiety and/or chronic illness, “Breath by breath, Beloved, breath by breath.”
So yes, I’m doing a thing on November 2nd, and I have to keep reminding myself of how far I have come. I will not let this pain get the best of me and I will be running (slowly) thinking about the many people who live with pain 24/7 and cannot run, or even walk. I’m one of the lucky ones.
For some crazy reason God has put this on my heart, that I need to keep moving forward even if I don’t know what lies ahead. My faith is strong and I will trust my God with all of my heart and soul.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- pumpkins
- leopard print
- a week of temps in the 70’s
- looking forward to a girls trip
- a dog at my feet
