I followed the directions and suggestions of the TED coaches to make sure I was on track with my talk.
“Focus on content and your big idea….come to at least 3 sessions” – 5 weeks
“Focus on gestures, voice, props…come to at least 2 sessions” – 3 weeks
“Focus on finalizing your talk” – 3 weeks
I have done everything according to plan, I have been off notes for a few weeks, went to more sessions than needed, have practiced and practiced to make sure my talk is not just in my head but also my heart.
I’m ready. I’ve been told I’m ready, I know I’m ready, I want this to be done so that I can move on to another project.
But what if something in my talk is taken the wrong way by someone? What if someone completely disagrees with my opinions? What if I am berated because I hold on to hope tighter than most and just happen to be in a good place right now?
Doubt.
It loves to grab hold of me.
What if? A land I choose not to live in but sometimes visit.
I have learned through this TED process that the story, the idea, the conversation is the key and when I talk about my sons, their hemophilia, the lost generation, inhibitors and hope I know I cannot go wrong.
“Father, God I want nothing more than for this talk to touch the heart of at least one person who lives with a chronic illness. I pray that they are able to find and hold on to hope when they are in their darkest hours and when they get to the other side and things are better that they see where that hope came from…from you, Father, the One who loves us despite our messes, loves us when we are lost and loves us like no one else ever could.”
I will forever be a prisoner of hope.
Today I Am Thankful For
- A fantastic worship service
- Movies
- New jammies
- Smudges on my glasses
- Doing the right thing
